HIATUS.
until i feel like it.

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HELLO WORLD! I AM ALIVE!

i went to watch this today at the esplanade. AWESOMEzZ! :):) alone, but nevermind that! i didn't actually get the performance (ie. VERY OUT OF TOUCH WITH MY ARTY-FARTY SIDE! BOOHOO!) but OHMOMOMO I TOTALLY ♥ SHAOLIN MONKS! (if you don't want to watch the whole video above, just fast forward to 2:00. shaolin monks in suits! SEXAYYY!) anyways, thanks shan for the ticket! :D i think i'd try to watch more performances this summer, especially since its the SG Arts Fest. if only i have more moneyyy!

people say that as one door closes, another one opens.

i just got selected for a ten day humanitarian project dealing with sanitation issues in aceh. very very pale, in comparison to a six week internship with an NGO, but i don't know. i feel very disillusioned with AIESEC now, GK especially. such disappointment, i don't want to go through something as painful as that ever again.

both has its own pros and cons. going to aceh will mean that i'd have a lot of free time this summer, so i can do a lot of other things. i have never embarked on a sanitation project before (will be very useful if i want to join World Toilet Organisation!!) plus, the trip will be really easy on my pocket. i'd be going with indonesians mostly, and some of the singaporeans' names i saw on the list, i recognise! (AZMIL MY SUCKCOCK PARTNER!!! :D) means i know i'd have some great company!

going for an aiesec internship, on the other hand, will mean that i'd get a whole load of experience plus an adventure of a lifetime!  it'll look really really good on my resume. and, i have already spent close to $400 on membership fees. if i don't go, all that money will go to waste. but going for an aiesec internship will also mean that i'd have to spend a whole lot more money sustaining myself when i am there. and i just don't have enough time left to get a temporary job that'll help me get so much money i don't have to worry about it.

i don't know what to do. God help me.
but well, i'm late for my lunch date. turrah!

role reversal! HAHA :D me evil granddaughter.
made my nenek walk instead of pushing her on the wheelchair! :P
she gave up halfway and told me to get off. hoho.


i totally need to post this photog up, because it is too funny and i ♥ my banily and i need a cheering up because...

THE PHILIPPINE UNI TOTALLY CANCELLED MY AIESEC INTERNSHIP "FOR THIS BATCH OF GK INTERNS" LAR SIAL. COMPANY RESTRUCTURING YOUR ASS LAR. WHY NOW? WHY TO MY BATCH? UGHHH. I AM MORE THAN MOTHERFLOWER PISSED. LIKE, I WAS ALREADY BUYING MY PLANE TICKET (FILLED UP THE APPLICATION FROM AND ALL + PLAN FOR MY TRAVEL INSURANCE & LONGSTAY VISA AND ALL). THANK GOODNESS THE PROMOTION FOR THE TIGER AIRWAYS TICKET (BUDGET I KNOWWW) I WANTED SUDDENLY GOT DE-PROMOTIONALISED AND ABD CONVINCED ME TO CALL UP TIGER AIRWAYS TODAY. AND LUCKY I DECIDED TO CHECK MY EMAIL FIRST BEFORE FINALLY PURCHASING MY TICKET TODAY, OR I WOULD HAVE WASTED MY MONEY ON THAT WILL-BE-UNUSED PLANE TICKET. ARGHH. I ALREADY HAD MY SUMMER PLANS LAID OUT SO NICELY. AND THIS WAS THE EFFING PERFECT INTERNSHIP FOR ME. SO WHY. UGH. KNNBCCB. WHY. I WANT WANT WANT TO GO TO PINOY LAND SO BADLY. BADLYYYYYYYY. AND MORE IMPORTANTLY, I WANT TO HAVE A MEANINGFUL SUMMER BREAK. SO AT THE END OF THE DAY, IT DOESN'T ACTUALLY MATTER WHERE I GO, AS LONG AS I CAN AFFORD IT. I JUST WANT TO  INTERN FOR AN NGO.

MOTHER.FLOWER. PISSED.OKAY.
(okay maybe you don't understand half of the things i said and i know very vulgar very unlike me, but i just need to let off some steam. roar.)

"The interns are expected to be able to teach young children most of the time as well as perform other duties assigned by the organization.Other Important things to know: The internship involves letting the interns stay within the poor communities that you’ll be assigned to. This means that you’ll be experiencing and observing firsthand the difficulties that the poor communities are going through while performing your specified tasks. Interns are expected to be very flexible (be prepared for anything and expect a lot of changes along the way) and keep an open mind towards things."

:D:D:D
totally dream come true! thank you God. thank you, thank you!
PINOY AKO! PINOY TAYO! :):)

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had a great time with my banily at the babiqueue! will blog more about it when photogs are up!
off for Project SaCH interview!n hopefully i'd get to go to aceh for freeeee! because pinoy land will totally suck me dry!

i think death is truly the biggest irony in life. why were we put on earth, only to die?
(please don't tell me to worship God, because i feel that that is an equally great or greater irony on its own. is it fair, to be judged and rewarded/tortured forever based on how you've lived your life in less than a century? do you even know how long forever is?)

but when i heard the news of ayuk's death upon waking up this morning (by four people, no less!) i must say i was deeply shaken. i just stayed in bed wrapped under my quilt, thinking of many many things. (i don't handle death very well. i'd usually lapse into a state of jimo.) ayuk was the only mlep-er i barely spoke to. i thought he was too cool to talk to a geek like me (or maybe i've a fear of rejection. hehh.)

in any case. ayuk, my prayers are with you. may you rest in peace. Amin.

i wanted to write a happy happy entry on how my exams have ended and i can finally have my 3 month break and it was a good day well-spent with amin followed by a great (aka free) dinner with my thai classmates and teachers, but my words seem to really fail me now.

all i want is that my many plans for the summer will just pull through!

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i want to break free, i want to break free
i want to break free from your lies
you're so self-satisfied i don't need you
i got to to break free
God knows, God knows i want to break free

i've fallen in love, i've fallen in love for the first time
and this time i know it's for real
i've fallen in love, yeah
God knows, God knows i've fallen in love

but i have to be sure when i walk out that door
oh, how i want to be free


same song, but for me they're two different messages for two different people.
OHH I ♥ FREDDIE MERCURY & QUEEN!
AND HELLO HEIDI NG! I ♥ YOU TOO! :):)

my sister got her fat brown package today! :):) the same package that made me the happiest human being alive two years ago.
that makes three of us now. so ehyang, now the pressure is totally on you! ♥
my family had pastamania for dinner, and i realise its been quite a while since we all ate together like that.

three days before my grandpa died, he asked me whether i've passed my university or my psle. psle, for God's sake. i just laughed it off. right now, i miss him. ohh i miss him so. but for all its worth, one more paper to getting one step closer to passing university, pak!

so anyways, congrats mai! :):) i'll see you in school soon. OHMOMO WE CAN TAKE THE SAME MODULES TOGETHER! SO SEXCITING! HAHA. i know bapak would have been proud of you. and if you tell nenek now, she'd just cry, in that same old way she always do! :D

i don't know if you've been on the bus and/or watched tv mobile recently, but just in case you haven't, you should totally watch the music video above. OHMOMOMO SUPER CORNY THE WAY I LIKE PLEASE! :D:D very like the sars-is-the-virus-that-i-just-want-to-minus kind! :) best, i think it was made by a bunch of HCI teachers, which explains quite a lot actually. haha!

happy labour day all! :):)


[edit] OHMOMOMO I THINK I JUST SPOTTED 05A02's MR DAN IN THE MV! *DIES* I WANT TO BE IN A CORNY MV TOO! [/edit]

gahhh i really hate YUNG KAT! i think the only not good thing i can think of living in amk, especially my area, is the fact that is a dengue-prone area. which is why, i always get very worried at this time of the year when i get so many many mosquito bites! ahhh calamine calamine lotion, ohh no more calamine lotion!

ITCHY ITCHY SCRATCHY SCRATCHY UP AND DOWN MY BACKY WACKY
ITCHY ITCHY SCRATCHY SCRATCHY UP AND DOWN MY BACKSIDE!

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3 down, 2 to go! :D and i must say, i really love my homieZ! next sem will be so lonely without them! :(
CHOK DII KHA! SUU SUU! :):)

 
HELLO WORLD!
MEET MY BED BUDDIES! :):)
from front.
1) barney. random from am! :):) but i just realised from the photog, THE FACE SO CACAT! NYAHAHA.
2) STRIPEY BABY! clearly my all-time favourite right? :D has travelled with me everywhere and anywhere! 16th birthday present from koks.
3) fluffy. name inspired by nick and norah's infinite playlist. hoho. 20th birthday present from fahmy and hanan.
4) JULIA(N). random from amin. my current favourite. SO CUTE RIGHT HELLO KITTY PANDA! :D:D and the fur so soft so nice. awww.

okay my next bed buddy will be a life-sized doll! (hint hint)
or a man. HEHEHE. gatal genes upZ! :P

GK is really really within reach now. PLEASE GOD, PLEASE!

though sometimes he annoys the hell out of me, and almost all of the time he pushes me away and mocks me and laughs at me when i cry, i know that i can always count on him if i need a hug. he may be younger than me, but i know he always cares and he is very very protective. my saving grace, really. i love you my baby boo! stay like this forever k :)

and! THANK YOU CHETX FOR THE LUNCH YESTERDAY! :):) really really appreciate it. study smart for the exams k! all the best! ♥ you!


(that specs in the photog! I LOST IT! GAHHHH. i miss wearing it lar. now i've to resort to my fugly-ly scratched five-year old specs. H8!)